Long hiatus but worth it

19 Jul

I was gone for a while yes.  In that time my work hours lightened up a lot and I got to go on a vacation.  I am on a tight budget but food options have stayed healthy and at home.

I’m hoping now that things are calming down I can wipe my credit card charges back to zero and start from scratch.

My size 12 jeans that I wear for my part-time work are just falling off of me.  My crotch of the pants just hangs out between my legs and I have a bit of plumbers crack.  I was starting to get bummed that I look like a bum so I went to the goodwill to pick up some jeans.  I got another pair of size 6 jeans because they weirdly fit except that they don’t close.  A size 12 pair and a pair of size 10 jeans which both actually fit.  They are a little tight and the 12s show that my gut is back 😦

So its time to get serious again.  I also have decided to spend less hours on the internet which has been nice.  I normally sit my butt on the couch for hours and stare at the screen.  I spent some time taming my email, and so that has helped a lot.

I have been taking out books from the library about specific topics but that has also helped.  Yesterday at the goodwill I saw all these books I’ve wanted to read and decided I was going to focus more on reading and language learning aside from this blog of course 🙂

There is still a month and a half til the wedding I’m planning to attend as a guest.    I am confident I can tame the belly by then and be size 10 pants exclusively.  I have my Ipod all cued up will songs but left it in hubbys car so I will have to figure something else out.  I’m happy that I haven’t back slid despite not making it to the gym often.

But with all this extra energy, frustration and aggrevation I have to put the energy somewhere so it looks like gym it is.

Things are going well.

5 Jun

I’ve been gone for a while but I have lost weight and I’m down in weight!  I have had to do a lot of necessary walking lately and I forgot how good it felt.  I have been eating as well as I can for someone who works as much as I do.

There is a vacation coming up at the end of the month and my tummy is still a barrel.  I’m going to do some strength exercises a few times a week and swim at least once a week to whittle that down.  Now that the financial goals are all chugging along nicely and work may be drying up I have time to do what I need to do for myself.

I started flossing again.  My teeth are in horrible shape and need a lot of work but flossing helps a bit.  I don’t know what’s going to happen financially.  What I do know is that things are going to be okay and working out gives me the boost that I need to stay happy.

Its time

19 May

I had been very focused on my financial goals.  Nothing wrong with that but I have other goals too.  I kept trying to track etc figuring out that it doesn’t really work for me.

So I took the book I use for finances and changed everything around to apply to fitness.  Now I have a road map which is good.  Although I haven’t lost weight my belly seems to be shrinking.  I’ll need to measure it after this week to see if it has indeed gone down.

It feels nice to switch tracks a bit and start making guided efforts to where I’d like to be physically.  My health is very important and at this point it has to be put first.  I get winded walking up stairs even.

I’m very happy I haven’t gained weight but now that I am shifting my main focus things should be ramping up and I should start feeling better again like I used to when I was fit.  There are still many days left in May to hit the lose the belly goal.  I am excited at the prospect of it not poking out of shirts anymore. 🙂  I feel great.  I should be back here in a week a pound thinner and much stronger physically.

I can believe its already 12 days into May

12 May

Lately I feel like I’ve been holding my breath.  I have been majorly focused on achieving some financial goals and one of them is fast approaching, I am about to pay off my car.  This week in fact if everything goes as planned.

While this financial focus has paid off well, it has held me back from other goals.  Fitness being one of them.  My job situation is cyclical though.  The fitness one is not.  If I can get on a plan I can maintain for fitness it will be one I can maintain for a lifetime.  I have held my weight since the last loss which has been great.  Sadly though I’ve been giving myself more treats.  Funnily enough the treats taste awful because of all the good food I’ve been eating.  My food budget (along with all others) had been reduced severely while trying to reach my goal.  I just found a cookbook though that makes it easy to eat well while using cheap ingredients: http://www.leannebrown.ca/cookbooks/

I’m going to use try to liven up this weeks food menu without breaking the bank.  I also gave up going to get waxed months ago.  This was huge bummer.  I’ve been using Nair for a while now but it seems my skin is not happy about it anymore.  I’m hoping maybe I can try to figure out a way to budget in waxes again or at least try to do this for the summer months.  Although I’m really glad I didn’t splurge recently as it is currently snowing outside!

My husband is talking about working out again now that he is healed after surgery and he needs to regain muscle use so I might have a fitness buddy soon.  It seems I just need to recommit myself to this project.  I have a goal but not a ton of motivation reach it.  I guess it’s almost ingrained at this point to go without so I can pay off my debts, which soon will only consist of student loans, both the car and the credit cards were paid off due to my unwavering efforts.  I guess I just have to realign my focus again.  I wanted to think about it and type it out here.  Put it in my weight goals folder and check it regularly like I do with my finances.  Just like debt pay off its only going to happen if I make it happen.  While I’ve been lukewarm about the whole thing the reality is I need to do something for myself again.  And working out is not only healthy but in my case its frugal as I have a cheap gym membership.

While a cookie here and there won’t derail my efforts I need to reassess my goals.  Why I put up this blog and why I keep trying.  Even in my minimal efforts I have gone down one pants size.  What I want and what I’ve always wanted is to be one of those people who eats healthy.  Having a kitchen full of veggies (which I often do) and fruits (which I rarely do except citrus for water and margaritas.)  I have been good about using up left overs though which has created some great healthy dishes.  I fall off the wagon since I keep making the same some few dishes that I know don’t cost much.

I did a project where I reorganized my dishes in binders and that has been really helpful.  We are making it more of a consistent habit to menu plan.  So it’s not like starting from scratch but I do need to make the effort to maintain the habit. Food is mostly covered though when I veer of track I usually sit down and do something about it.

It’s working out that’s a b*tch.  Lately I’ve been putting in so many hours to my contract job and part-time job that I am always exhausted.  I do have a mini gym in the complex that I should take advantage of on nights I’m too tired to drive to my gym.  I know if I wake up early enough I can get into the pool at the gym I pay for so that is something.  If I find a way to work my way around fitness then everything will be fine.  I need to make that effort now.  The last thing I need to do is let all my hard work go to waste.  I’d like to go right after my night-time part-time job but my husband usually stays up late on those nights so we can see each other so I’m not giving that up.  The next option is to wake up for 4 or 5 am to catch the pool before anyone else does.  While this would be difficult for me it would also be my best bet because then I am up bright and early and can put in overtime hours at my job.

This is something to try tonight.  Go to both jobs today set my alarm and roll out of bed bright and early tomorrow to get in a work out.  This is the ideal.  I’ll see if I can make that happen today and if I can then I’ll keep it up two more times this week.  Maybe at the end I’ll even end up showing a loss. 🙂  Time to get back to work and plan a menu.

Eyes on the prize

2 May

I have had a downward trend in weight.  I am now 3 pounds lighter than I was when this started and I haven’t seen the inside of a gym yet.  My personal goal for May in the fitness arena is to “tame the tummy.”

I’d like to be 2 inches smaller in the mid section.  I have to go to the gym and or exercise in order to make that happen.  With a lot of stress lifted from me in the financial department it might be easier now.  I need to have a routine to successfully accomplish all my goals and they are starting to seem more intertwined for the first time in a while.

Just this small commitment to eating better resulted not only in weight loss but it made my outlook more positive.  I take a daily walk by myself now a days.  It might just be to the mail box but its totally personal time to regroup and focus.  A little non expensive or calorie laden break from the madness of my day.  I am hoping that cultivating this habit has meant that I can now pick a time and stick to it.

I need to focus.  I need to finish up my job assignment right and I want to see even more results in my weight loss.  It’s been nice to have a positive outlook again.  To have a yearning to get up and move around.  I hope things continue this way for me.  But for now I’m just going to focus on the positive and keep moving in that direction!

I have been very busy

24 Apr

Busy helping everyone other than myself aside from working to make sure I have enough money to stay on track in my financial plans.  Good news is I have finally dipped below the weight I started at and I have made it a habit to evaluate food choices before I put something in my month.

The menu habit is sticking too.  It’s been nice.  I am happy that somethings have stayed on track.  I am not so happy about some other things staying on track though.  Like the constant not going to the gym.  Right now I am sitting here starving.  I made out a plan though I could go to the gym now walk on the treadmill for 30 mins and be home in time for my scheduled appointment.  But then I think oh no the dogs need to go out and I need to eat.  My mind says “Yes but you set a goal and even though you are losing weight, you are not exercising and not using the gym membership that you are paying for which is setting you further back from your financial goals.”  Then the argument continues and I still sit here running out the clock.

I’m tired of running out the clock.  I am now a little less than a year away from when I want to achieve my goal weight and 5 month from my mini goal.  Something has to give.

Yes I have had medical issues.  Yes I’ve had a bit of success with my eating program but if I want to see real results and not feel so icky on a regular basis I need to make this happen.  I’m tired of telling myself why I can’t do things and need to let myself make these plans and really follow through on them as well.  NO more.  If I just keep sitting here I am going to keep have menial results.  I can’t achieve what I want to in this span of time without the exercise to.  It’s time to put my money where my mouth is.

Slow Start

10 Apr

This week my husband had surgery.  I had tried to plan everything out so things could keep running in the meantime but it didn’t quite work out. Good news: Lost the pound I gained last week Bad news: Still didn’t make time for exercise, have had constant cramps all week, work stress is not helping New Plan: Work out before the work day starts.  It’s the most relaxing.  Right before work is a good idea and my schedule is such that I can make it happen. My food diary is laying there unwritten in for the past two days, the sink is a mess, the kitchen is a mess and I am sick of take out food.  But I am not giving up.  Just because things are difficult doesn’t mean I should stop trying.  I am ecstatic that I have kept up the maintenance and still fit in size 10 jeans.  My 12’s have been tossed it feels amazing and a validation that I have been doing at least half of the puzzle correctly.  If I make it to one exercise session at all I would be so pleased.  Right now I can feel myself falling asleep at the keyboard. If I get up tomorrow morning and go it would be great as I need to get a lot of work done in the morning and this would unfog my head.  My gym bag is packed and all is in order.  Now I just need to ask myself what is more important and extra hour of sleep or an work out session in my food planner? Thank you all who have paid attention so far.  Knowing that people are out there gives me a reason to stay on the path and not surrender.  Not even when I get to my goal.  It’s a lifestyle that I seem to be able to maintain on the food side now I just need to make exercise a habit instead of a thought!